I promise you this will not turn into a blog about the death of Robin Williams and/or his depression. Just bear with me for one more blog post about it, then I’ll move on. Well, maybe I will. I can always change my mind. You know, it’s my blog.
In talking to friends and listening to some in the media about the death of Robin Williams, many don’t understand how he could leave his wife and kids behind. How could he do this horrible thing to his family? As Dick Cavett says in a Time Magazine piece, “Easy.” Cavett also had more to say about Robin and depression over at The Huffington Post.
Cavett has suffered from depression for years, so he knows what he’s talking about. Unless you have gone through this miserable state of mind, you don’t know what the feeling is like.
I know the feeling. I’ve been there.
There is no joy, there is no happiness. Good news and/or bad news—it’s all the same news. You can feel the clouds gathering in your head. The clouds are over a dark road that you think will never end. You’re looking for the exit that simply isn’t there. Sometimes you feel like the only exit is to die.
There’s no doubt that each of us who suffer from depression suffer from it in different ways and in different degrees. I attempted to describe my feelings about it in a CityBeat column back in April of 2009.
For me and for Cavett, we have found ways to deal with this illness. In Robin’s case, I don’t know what drove him to the edge or why he decided to take that final exit. What I do know is that it’s extremely sad.
(Photo of Dick Cavett from CBS News)